Loss

When you have so many emotions and you aren't really sure how you're feeling and all you want to do is stay in bed and watch Christmas movies and cry but you have to be an adult and do adult things like go to work and go shopping and interact with people and pretend you are okay. Life really is unfair.

I think the emotion that is dominating is loss. Is that an emotion? I think it is. And it's not a fun one. And my nose hurts. And my garbage can is quickly filling with tissues. And I'm wondering why I even bothered putting makeup on this morning. I think I was trying to be optimistic. My optimism is fading. Quickly.