We've got this

Ever had one of those days where you know the world won't end, but it kind of feels like it will and you almost hope that it does? And you can't even have a cookie to try and drown it all out? That was my Monday.

And then you have those moments within that day where you can hear God whisper, "take a deep breath, we've got this". It still takes the entire day, a good cry, a conference talk and a good nights sleep to actually believe it and feel better, but He never lies.

We've got this.

Whole30 Day 12

I'm on day 12. Today is not a good day. I'm very frustrated that since I started this I don't have ANY energy to run. My day to day energy levels seem to be fine, but when I go out to run there is nothing in the tank. Today it's really getting to me and making me mad. REALLY mad. I have a half marathon in a month and I have gone from 10 minute miles before I started this to 12 minute miles. Not encouraging. AND I'm suppose to be upping my mileage, but I barely have the energy to run a 5K. I think it's a combination of other things in life stressing me out, the new way of eating, and PMS that have me really hating this today, but that doesn't change the fact that I want to cry and go eat some carbs that will actually give me some GO when I run.

On a brighter note: I made my own lara bars and they turned out yummy and they were super easy. You can find the recipe here.  I haven't done the math yet to determine if it's actually cheaper to make my own, but at least I know that if it is, it's worth the time to make them on my own.
I also made my own coconut flakes. I'll attempt coconut milk and coconut flour next.
Look at me, being all domestic and adventurous.

Little moments

I went home this weekend for Mother's Day. I wasn't planning on it since we have all kinds of weddings and family things coming up requiring lots of travel and assuring I'll see my family, but when my dad called and asked me to come, I couldn't say no. I got a couple passengers from the BYU ride board and headed home.
The weekend was nice, mom was surprised, but one of my favorite moments of the whole weekend was when I made my dad read me a story. I was just sitting in the office doing nothing. He came in and was bothering me, because that's what he does best, so I handed him a book and told him to read it to me. He told me there weren't enough pictures, so I grabbed "The magic pumpkin" and handed it to him.
He stood there and read it to me and it was just a lovely little moment.

Look Up

This gem of a video is going around facebook right now. I love that it came out at about the same time as Elder Ballard's CES devotional which you can watch here.

How much of life are we missing out on because we are hooked into our electronic devices? What people are crying out for our love, attention and help? What beautiful moments are we missing because we're watching the latest clip of ___________ (fill in the blank) on youtube?

I hope I can take a good inventory of my life and how I spend my time and make the necessary changes to actually be present in my own life. To see the beauty and blessings surrounding me and the wonderful people all around me just waiting for me to love them.

Last day of freedom

I'm super ticked this got deleted. Here goes round 2. If this one gets deleted, I'm taking it as a sign that I shouldn't do this.

My friend Kari has convinced me to give the whole30 challenge a try. Basically I cut out all food. But seriously here is what I can't eat.

• Do not consume added sugar, real or artificial.
• Do not eat grains. This includes pseudo grains like quinoa. 
• Do not eat legumes. What the heck!? I thought those were good for you.
• Do not eat dairy. With the exception of something I've never even heard of. Ghee anyone?
• Do not eat white potatoes. Really?! I'm from IDAHO!! smh
• Do not consume alcohol in any form. Finally an easy one.  
• Do not consume carrageenan. I don't know what that is, but spell check is telling me it's misspelled the replacement word for it is carnage. I think I'll avoid that one. No MSG or sulfites.
• No Paleo-fying baked goods, dessert and junk food. 

Basically the next 30 days will be filled with vegetables, fruits, meats, a lot of label reading and creativity. I've done no sweets for a month. No meat for a month. We'll see how I do with this ^^ awesome monstrosity. At least this time I'm not doing it by myself.

Tonight Kari and I are menu planning and grocery shopping and having our last non whole30 friendly meal. Hot dogs on the grill and Rita's for dessert.

I'll blog about it here and blow up instagram with obnoxious hashtags about my weird sauce food. At least facebook will be safe.

Just don't offer me a snickers. I don't think I have that much self control.