Tuesday, September 21, 2010

The change begins

Here comes fall, the changing of the seasons, the leaves are bright and colorful, and I'm changing right along with it. I've decided to move in with my friend Katie and her family. We, my current roommate and I, looked for somewhere to live together but it just wasn't coming together. We really wanted to live together and she really wanted to stay in the sames apartments where we are now. We talked and looked and it just wasn't there. But then I had this epiphany, she could go to an apartment that had an opening in the ward and I would do something else. So now I'm going to live with Katie until January and then I get to change again. It'll be great. Moving all my stuff hasn't been fun and I'm really going to miss my roommate and being close to so many single adults in my ward.
Right now I'm also getting a lesson in how to not be jealous. I'm finding it to be a bit difficult. Someone help! I feel like once I'm finally on top of one thing there's something else. It's so lame. Lame but necessary. I remember on the mission my Zone leader gave me a pep talk after I had a breakdown. He told me the mission (and life)is a refiners fire. If it's not one thing it will be something else.That's how we learn and grow. I'll catch onto this life thing sometime.

Tuesday, September 7, 2010

Decisions, Decisions

Not gonna lie, I'm not a huge fan of making decisions. I do okay with your everyday tasks, what to eat for breakfast, pants or a skirt, straight or curly hair, but the bigger more life impacting decisions aren't so easily made. I've known since January when I signed my lease that it ended in September. Now here we are in September and do I have a new place to live yet? Of course not. Have I thought about it? You better believe it! Have I gotten anywhere with it? Not really. I think I've come to the conclusion that maybe I depend on others too much. What are they choosing, what will help them the most, blah, blah, blah. Well here I am waiting for them to choose, trying to help out someone else and the answer came yesterday that I shouldn't wait on her anymore. Maybe that's not a good way to phrase it. The answer was maybe you should just make a decision. Now I'm stuck. I was gonna stay where I am with my one roommate, but that just doesn't look like it's going to work. I can move in with another friend which I think is what I want to do, the only problem is that I drug my feet long enough that now the place we were going to go is full until next semester. So now I need to find a place to live for 3 months until I can go to the place I should have gone with 3 weeks ago. What's my problem?! Where to live, where to live?