Sunday will come

Somedays you're on top of the world and somedays you have a melt down. My melt downs seem to occur around Labor Day. I just take one a year but I make it count. The end of last week was interesting. Thursday I started crying at work. Poor co-worker he wasn't quite sure what to do with me. Offered me a hug, which I really wanted but I knew I'd totally dissolve so I passed on that. Then I was fine. Friday he had a crappy day and it was my turn to offer him a hug. Saturday was fine, Sunday was great. Monday was a Monday. Tuesday though, that's where it went downhill fast. I work collections, not the most desirable job, but it pays me. Anyway we have this account that is 22 days past due and I saw the guy walking down the street so I called him up. Well he actually answered and he didn't have anything nice to say. After listening to as much profanity as I could stand I hung up. My co-worker, Aldo, looked at me and asked what happened. I told him and so he picked up the phone and called the guy back. He wasn't nice and put this guy in his place. Between the guy swearing at me and Aldo standing up for me I completely lost it. I went in the back and composed myself and then I was okay I guess. Watery eyes and not feeling super great. I decided part way through the day that I didn't really like feeling so sad and always on the verge of tears so I decided to ask my neighbor for a blessing. This is a hard thing for me. I don't know why but it always is. Well I did okay for the day, but at the end of the day I really just wanted a hug so I asked Aldo for a hug. Being the nice guy he is, he gave me one, but that set me off and I just started crying. I left work and went to the temple where I cried through the session off and on. Then in my car I completely dissolved. I got home and after I cried to my roommate my neighbor came over to give me a blessing with another guy from my ward. , I told the guys my "issues" for lack of a better word and cried some more. The thing that bugs me the most is that there really wasn't anything wrong. Maybe change and stress? Anyway Simeon gave me a blessing and I calmed down and wasn't even crying by the time it was over, but then Simeon gave me a hug and I just couldn't keep it in.
Satan was definitely working on me, but I'm feeling better now. After breaking down one more time for the night with my friend Katie I felt much better. I'm grateful for the priesthood and good friends.
Life really is okay, but sometimes it's just hard. Maybe a bit overwhelming. It will always be that way, no matter the stage of life. I get that. Right now it's my lot in life to be single and to sometimes feel lonely, overwhelmed, confused, and maybe a bit lost. But it's okay. Heavenly Father loves me. He's given me the tools I need to make it through. I don't have to go it alone. No matter how bad things look, it's like the talk Elder Wirthlin gave a few years ago, Sunday will come.

Family

Already this week has been quite delightful and filled with family. As a single girl living away from home it's always nice when I get to go home and see my family. This week has been a bit different. Sunday I got to drive up to Tremonton where my cousin Jon lives to pick up my cousin Emma. Emma is from Pennsylvania and I hadn't seen her in about 9 years. She will be going to BYU this semester. She flew out last week and my cousin Jon picked her up from the airport. Then my aunt came down from Idaho and took her shopping for everything she'd need at college. Then it was my duty to make sure she made it to BYU. So we had a nice chat getting to know each other a bit on the way back, she stayed the night at my apartment and then we got up bright and early to take her to school. We dropped her stuff at her dorm, got her an ID card and books and then I left her to go on her retreat. I sure do like that girl.
Then to add to the day my grandpa called me to see if I was working, which I was. He then called me back to see what time I got off work and invite me to dinner. He then called me back again and asked me to go pick up my cousin Connor and meet them for dinner. So after getting off work late I went and got Connor and we drove to my great aunts house. So the reason for this get together is that my cousin McKenna is also starting at BYU this fall and her family drove her out from Michigan. So we all went out to dinner. My aunt Shelley is insane. That woman can TALK. It's very funny. Sadly McKenna and Teresa don't remember me and hardly even knew how we were related. I find this quite ridiculous since I saw them last year when they brought Connor to school, but what are ya gonna do? It was fun to see everyone and chat for a bit and free dinner is always appreciated.
In other news in the wonderful world of Cathy, I decided to work this week instead of taking a vacation. I didn't really know where to go and I didn't want to go by myself. It saves me money and I'm earning money and I get to work with my awesome co-worker one more week. I didn't like working by myself but it would have been easier to leave if I hadn't gotten a new awesome co-worker. He's hilarious and he keeps trying to convince me to stay. If I didn't dislike the job so much he might be able to convince me. So as of now I have 4 days left. The summer is coming to a close. It's been great. I'll be moving soon. Lot's of new adventures to come.

New Job!

I got a new job!!!! I'm SO SO excited about it. I called on Friday to check up and then they called me back. It took a lot of restraint to not jump up and down while I was on the phone with the man. After I hung up though, there was no restraining going on. I was jumping and yelling and I was so excited! Good thing no one else was in the office. :) Don't get me wrong, I'm very grateful to have a job at all, but it's just not very fun when you dread going to work everyday. It's even worse now because my boss and only co-worker quit two weeks ago so I've been working 6 days a week all by myself. Luckily that ends tomorrow when the Manager from St. George transfers to my office. Sad day for him that I'm putting in my two weeks notice tomorrow. I think my position will be filled easily so I don't feel too bad. I don't start my new job until the 2nd of September so I'm thinking of maybe going on a vacation to somewhere awesome for a week or so. I just don't know where. Any suggestions?