Emotions

I get so frustrated with myself and the way I'm feeling. I understand that feelings are a part of life and that sometimes they can't be helped, but lately I feel like the ones I'm experiencing actually could be helped and I'm just failing and changing my attitude or outlook or whatever it is that would make me feel better, but I'm just not doing it.
Jealousy, inadequacy, loneliness, resentment. Not exactly at the top of the "How I want to feel" list.

I tell people I'm fine. Because really I am. Life is good and I don't have anything to complain about, but then I come home and even though I know it's true and I am "okay" I don't feel it.
I know the answer. I know what I need to do, but sometimes it's just easier said than done and the results don't come as quickly as I would like them to. But I know they work, so I guess I'll just have some patience and some perseverance and know that God knows what's going on and He knows what He is doing.
We all have Jonah days. But they teach us, make us stronger and they pass.

Life as of late

I am unsure what happened to February. I'm pretty sure it happened, since it's now March, but I really don't remember much of it. I had a birthday in there, made a trip home, and moved. But I guess the move really happened in March, so that doesn't count.
We hired another girl at work and that has significantly made my life less stressful. I leave by 5:30 and don't have nightmares about things I might have done wrong or not done at all at work. It's very good for my energy levels. Who knew actually sleeping instead of working in your sleep could make you feel so much better. Let's add to that the nicer weather and longer days, thus allowing time for a good run after work and really life is great.
I did have to move and that was kind of crummy, but I'm all moved now and I think it will be a good change. Don't go thinking I got adventurous or anything. I moved one street north. Big jump. I just couldn't stand the thought of moving out of my ward.
My bi monthly goals seem to be doing not so well. I did okay in January with family history, I got pictures from my mom and some stuff she had started, asked my family for written stuff on each member of the family, got a response from my sister, and did indexing. February, as mentioned, didn't actually happen, so I'm not going to count it against me.
March and April are suppose to be missionary months. Last year I did "March Madness" Deb style. Which means I read the entire Book of Mormon in the month of March. I'm doing it again this year and I'm almost caught up. Moving put a big dent in things, but luckily it available to listen to online. Hurray for technology.
I plan to continue on the family history kick and maybe that will just be my goal for the whole year. It'll take me that long to get my family to get me the info I requested!

And now you know I'm still alive. Nothing too exciting. Life is good.